October 10th 2014 Was the day i jumped off a bridge into the freeway By Karen K. Soon

October 10th 2014 Was the day i jumped off a bridge into the freeway By Karen K. Soon

added note: was the bridge of adams ave in riverside i was 20 years old

point of this story is i want to remember what i did so that i have to say point is i learned to never do things like that ever again and you shouldnt try to die either

i recovered pretty good though i need to law of attract with good faith to heal even more but honestlyy im proud of myself for growing away from suicide voices got way better as i grew more positive they help me they family in heaven so remember this video in a way that it very much persuades you enough not to try to commit suicide cause if you follow my inner work video teachings and websitte stuff i hope that and my law of attracting for helping people can someday just better all of our lives mines already great now

im typing this almost a complete 6 years later (has half fa month to go then it will be 6 years)

The reason i jumped was because i feared being homeless on the streets

i had no desire to stay in a mental health place for 9 months they didnt tell me much i felt that was uncalled for its where my mom dropped me off she kicked me out of the house

for reasons like psychosis and us not seeing eye to eye

i didnt know if i stayed in the mental health place for 9 months i wouldve eventually had ssi

i just wanted to find work and a home but i screwed up my ableness to physically work (i feel im still recovering from the fall)

so i told the emergency mental health hospital i had a place to stay so they let me go

what broke my heart was i wasnt hearing voices right and i felt pretty low on myself for not having a girl friend or a stable home life so

the voices didnt tell me to jump i was just convinced my parents would either let me be on the streets for my life or they would take me back to the mental place which i hate that place its so boring

but on the way to walking to the bridge i had no idea where i was i took a guess and walked till i found it but on the walk there i was like OK god. this is it

either send me a physical guardian angel in the flesh or im gonna jump

i met a man at a bus stop he has water and cookies he gave them to me

he said he was my gaurdian angel im not lying he said it so what throws me off is his bus came and i didnt wanna live with a drug seller but he yelled his phone number from on the bus and i couldnt remember it

so i was like god you shouldve gave me a gaurdian who would give me a nice home

but i was too scared to be homeless cause i didnt want evil men to touch me

so i jumped off anyways

i thought it was perfect that there was a gap in the gate so i just walked to the ledge

before i fell im like ok god i dont wanna hurt anyone else

take me to heaven

so i jumped pretty fast

but little did i know the truck stopped the flow of traffic already and he got out and ran to me i was on the ground and he cried on my face lol

heart touching though

so i broke my back, hip, and ankles

i landed on my feet

i was gonna get up like i was fine but they told me not to and the ambulance people put me on a gourney with a back board

the fall did not hurt

what hurt was that back board

my back hurt so bad

when i moved it wrong so in the hospital bed after my surgeries i was super careful not ;to move my back too much

i layed down to eat the first week or two

point of this story is i want to remember what i did so that i have to say point is i learned to never do things like that ever again and you shouldnt try to die either

i recovered pretty good though i need to law of attract with good faith to heal even more but honestlyy im proud of myself for growing away from suicide voices got way better as i grew more positive they help me they family in heaven so remember this video in a way that it very much persuades you enough not to try to commit suicide cause if you follow my inner work video teachings and websitte stuff i hope that and my law of attracting for helping people can someday just better all of our lives mines already great now so thats all for this video

I'm Sorry but at least I love life now

I learned to not just throw me away

I love all too much but we should live for each other and keep law of attracting best lives

for every nowbe super thankful feel blessed know more blessings are on the way

-karen k soon